It loomed larger on the horizon next to trees and buildings.
However it hid behind rain clouds.
Chances or not, could it be the reason why I am not happy?
Has the moon ate all up the good times and return with the bad times that is cancer?
Back in 2009, my mother was diagnosed with Stage 2 cancer. The next three years appeared normal. Until last month. She was sent again to the hospital for Theocentisis. A half liter of fluid was extracted from her lung. She is literally drowning. But she does not know it. She said she felt nothing. It appeared Cancer has metastised.
She grew up in a farm house in Calumpit Bulacan, said it was both tough and easy.
"Noong araw, walang tamad. Lahat may ginagawa sa loob ng bahay, kalit maliit na bata. Mahirap ang buhay, pero masaya. Naglalaro hangang tawagin na kami ni Ina dahil gabi na. Ngayon puro computer. Nakakaawa.”
I cannot agree more.
Today everything was kind of off-centre and wrong.
I worry so much, that the circumstances and stress surrounding her cancer has somehow affected her, and affected us. Though she softened a bit. She was no longer cursing when the youngest had tantrum. She leaves that already to us.
I know the panic will wear off one day, and we are left to live our lives like normal people.
Life is short. Do all of the wild and precious things you can possibly think of. Now. There won't always be time.
In the meantime ..... we're here to learn and grow and evolve, as much as we can. Be kind, man. Give of yourself to your family, and friends, and others. There's a saying that's been drummed into my head over time - you've got to give it away to keep it.
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Im including your mom in my prayers today :)
ReplyDeleteThanks alexx for the prayer. It was appreciated a lot.
Deletetruly... life is shorter than we think it is...
ReplyDeleteSo true. We have to enjoy every minute of it.
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